It's been a super long time since I last blogged. Perhaps I didn't feel any need to, or I had nothing to blog about. Maybe both.
Quite a lot has changed since the last time I blogged. First of all work has really changed with the 2 new people who just came in. If anything it got a lot worse, everyone is toying with leaving now, and if it materialises, things will spiral downward. I hope that either I will get adjusted quickly or things actually do get better.
It is now somewhere about 5 months as a policeman. I guess I've changed a lot too. Initially, I tried my best to not let what happens in the day to affect me after I finish my work. I guess this is sort of a self-defence mechanism to protect my emotional stability since feeling for the people I come across after the day draws to an end makes no difference anyway. After a while, I don't even have to try anymore, it just becomes routine, something that happens in my 12 hour shift. In a way, there's less of that fragility to protect anymore. I don't know if that's a good thing or not, it's just the state that things have become.
It took quite a long time but I think I've finally come to terms with shift work, even having to be recalled for whatever on my second-offs. It really bothered me in the start, not being available when everybody is, forcing the body to sleep when it doesn't want to, keeping it awake when it is not supposed to. Physically wise, I think I've adjusted to it well now, and I appreciate shift work a lot more now. I can happen to be free at times when needed where I would have to otherwise need to take leave if I were on office hours, and sometimes when I don't really feel like going out, shift work is a really convenient and valid excuse.
Yesterday was a really nice evening. Beatrice took me to Dempsey which is a really nice place but pretty inaccessible without a car. Dinner was really good. Although we didn't get to attempt suicide by chocolate cake or get drunk on ice cream I think it enough for an evening. Thanks :)
I finally bit the bullet and got a road bike end last year. To me, it's the destination of cycling if trails are not your thing. I guess at the core of most of the activities I choose, being able to do it alone is quite a big part. Perhaps growing up without lots of people around has led to this development, maybe it's the lack of a particular social gene hardwired into my DNA, maybe I chose it to be this way myself. I don't know. Cycling is a really simple activity once you get the hang of it, getting on a seat and zipping around on 2 wheels. However, it can be as complex as one wants it to be. Taking the technical route with all the various components, accessories and latest fashion that's available on the market, to refining one's endurance, cycling technique. However, presently I'm pretty unconcerned with all that, just enjoying short rides around. Enjoyment is the most important at the end of the day, regardless the path, regardless what others say/think :)
My dad was pretty worried and got me an early birthday present of a helmet which was really thoughtful. He helped me buy some stocks which I would pay him back when my unit trust funds become unfrozen. However, it went up a bit and he sold it so we could buy it back at a lower price if it drops and gave me the profit! Awfully sweet.
This post is really a mish-mash of things and the extent to which each item has been distilled is the amount of time and thought it had, with alot of the raw feeling adultered to become more subdued.
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