I have learnt that it's so much easier to feel down than to be happy because bitterness needs little tending to and grows like a weed. Last couple of weeks felt that NS was really a drag and couldn't wait for it to all be over and get on with life in university. The fact is that unless eating chocolates makes one's arms strong enough to swim the length of the causeway and perhaps beyond, I'm left with no choice but to just suck it up this 2 years. Beyond that, I think it'll be an absolutely miserable 2 years if it was just spent in endurance. Besides, there's many people/things/events inside to be thankful for but somehow I've just lost the vigour that I had when I enlisted and let this wallow in despair pull the wool over my eyes instead of seeing all the wonderful opportunities and lessons to be learnt in camp.
This week and the weeks after it are going to be different. I'll promise myself that much.
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